This
past Christmas I received a profound gift. Call me obsessive, but I have
seen the movie Brokeback Mountain six times already.
It is
haunting me like no other movie I can remember. The writing, direction,
technical aspects and, of course, performances are superlative.
In
particular, as an actor myself, I want to applaud Heath Ledger and Jake
Gyllenhaal for their inspired performances. When Gyllenhaal’s character
Jack Twist utters the words with honesty and heartfelt earnestness, “The
truth is…sometimes I just miss you so much I can hardly stand it” with a
quiver in his voice, I start to lose it.
Nothing,
however, nothing had prepared me for the acting triumph that is Heath
Ledger’s performance as Ennis Del Mar. His vocal, physical and internal
choices burst my heart open in every frame. He gives a colossal performance
because so much of his character Ennis is about what he cannot say, and
Ledger conveys all of Ennis’ rage, sorrow and wounds with fullness and fire.
It is in
my opinion, the best performance by an actor on film since Daniel Day-Lewis
in My Left Foot.
Something transformational is happening because of this movie.
I’m not
just talking about possibly many hearts and minds being changed among the
straights that see this movie. Something deeper and more personal is also
happening for many, and I am speaking as a gay man here.
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Friend
after friend is haunted by this movie. In a group of friends, we repeatedly
talk about is how much this film is deeply affecting us personally. So much
grief, so much loss, so much recognition.
We call
each other in the middle of the day to discuss the waves of emotion that are
surfacing even days after seeing the film.
It is as
if this movie appeared at this point in time in part to facilitate a massive
transformational healing among the gay men and others who see it. Some are
resolving to hold onto love when they find it while others are looking up
loves lost before they “came out”.
Why is
this healing happening? It is the transformational power of shamanism – the
true gift of acting.
As an
actor, I know how easy it can be this time of year for us to focus and fret
on awards and our status, success and recognition we are “getting” in the
industry.
The true
spirit of the Christmas season is about what we are “giving”. As actors we
possess the healing gift of shamanism.
Because
Heath and Jake fully committed to the truth within the material and
themselves, with passion and professionalism, this healing shamanism is
taking place.
If you
are an actor, and you had a blue Christmas because you don’t think you are
“getting” enough from your career – focus instead on your amazing power to
“give” healing through identification and revelation of truth through your
performance and then tell me you don’t feel better about yourself as an
actor.
I and so
many people will be forever grateful to Heath and Jake because they
fulfilled their mission as actors in this movie. You don’t need to be
straight or gay to play straight or gay – just committed to finding the
truth within you and the role and the story. Thanks for the gift, Heath and
Jake. I hope you both had a Merry Christmas too.
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Dan Wentzel (left) is an openly gay actor/writer currently living in Southern
California, but happily resided in the UK in 2003. He can be contacted
at
danrwentzelj (at) yahoo.com (remove the spaces and (at), and insert @ |